Hasan is almost 4 months :)

We were supposed to bring Hasan to the clinic for his 3rd month injection on the 5th of june but hubby was a little busy with work so this was postponed til end of june. But towards that,Hasan caught up with a flu and so the nurse at the clinic advised us to bring him the next week. And that was last monday, 2nd july. (which is just 3 days before he gets to 4 months) The injection went okay, he didnt cry. It was just like an almost crying sound, but no tears from my little hero. Yeayy. Alhamdulillah my milk supply is still enough for him and since i'm exclusively pumping, i have to pump every 3 hours. The day we had his aqiqah left me not pumping for 16 hours and almost had my milk supply dried up. But alhamdulillah, it started to come back again after i pumped and pumped and pumped and pumped. Like seriously every hour. This experience reminds me of how Allah is most generous in giving his mercy to those who really work hard and at the same time, He is the one who provides us with everything.and i haveto remember that milk supply is also part of our everyday rezeki/wealth that Allah provides us with. :)

it's been more than a month

I last wrote on 25th April, and now it's already the end of June..so it's been quite over a month now since i shared any stories. Well, after my final exam, me, hubby and son traveled back to Penang and then Kedah. That's why i've been a little busy and didn't have so much time to write. Anyway, the travel from Shah Alam to Penang went smooth, alhamdulillah; and Hasan behaved well in the car. He slept almost 90% of the drive.=)

Last week he has been on the flu again and coughing; maybe due to the hot hot weather back in Alor Setar. I asked my hubby whether to give him any medicine or not, and the doctor said NO. So i gave Hasan some water mixed with honey. The water must be a little warm so the honey could be mixed well. And alhamdulillah, it has been a great cure. (That's Allah's promise anyway). And at the same time, i put the baby's vicks (which smells of strawberry) on his nose and the area between the two eyes, then rubbed from the nose up to the forehead--that was the advice given by sis Farhana, who took care of me while in confinement..and it did help Hasan to breath better. One more thing, I also rubbed his chest with NR's balm, which was really effective too--this advice was given by my Mother-in-Law <3.

I've been enjoying my house-wife duty here without having to think about assignments that need to be done...books and journals that need to be read. But deep inside my thoughts, i'm constantly thinking about these stuff. :((((. But still, i'm thankful to be able to give my full attention to my son at this time around.

Oh and i've been trying to keep Hasan on using CLOTH DIAPERS :). It seems easy enough to use especially since i'm just a staying at home mom (AS OF NOW) :p. Cleaning the cloth diapers is also quite easy since after removing the stains (especially if he poops) i'll just throw them in the washing machine and it does the thorough cleaning. But the thing is, Hasan only has 6 of them now, so alternately i'll still have to use the usual diaper (we use Huggies). I guess we need at least around 12 cloth diapers to be able to fully use them without having to switch back. (That's because in a day, it needs to be changed, around 5-6 times so if these are already wet, at least we have another 5-6 for the next day. So, i'm thinking about buying more of these. BUT, since i'm not yet on allowance, it seems a bit difficult to do SHOPPING:p. Have to save up since we're only depending on hubby's salary which is mostly consumed by the CAR LOAN.hehe

Done on diapers and baby.

Today something caught my attention on facebook. I was browsing through and saw a picture of tudung(hijab) made of lycra material. I've been quite a fan of this material but didn't see this thing seriously. I did in the past thought about the material sticking to the body but didn't THINK properly. It just came to my mind and just faded away. But today after looking at the photo, i thought to myself that although we wear those express kind of tudung (tudung ekspres) where we just put on/sarung on, and choose the XL or even XXL size, and covers the body part up to the stomach, the material still somehow sticks to the body especially the chest area. So we are not actually covering ourselves and it's probably just the same as not wearing it, except that it covers the hair. Hmmm...this may be a tough decision but to cover our aurat properly, we seriously need to look into the MATERIAL that is used.  There are lycra tudung that does not really drop and stick to the chest so this one is probably better. But it is hard to find, i guess. Whatever it is, we must look back and reflect upon ourselves to see whether we are following the right path or not, and whether we are truly covering our aurah or not...just some things to RETHINK about.
This is just probably my opinion and others may have a completely different perspective :)

<3

More stories...

This should have been shared a few days ago but i didnt have time to write..so here goes a collection of untold stories... On friday, april 20th, it was mine and hasan's first proper outing ..we went to my aunt in law's house since her grand daughter was getting married the next day. They had a maulid that night and so it was good for hasan to be there...but at the same time, i was worried if he cried a lot or didnt want to sit still etc etc..but alhamdulillah, he did fine...he just 'merengek-rengek' a bit when he wanted milk..it was quite a long evening and all three of us got exhausted and fell asleep til morning..hasan didnt even wake up for susu in the middle of the night! Instead i had to wake him up:p The next day me and hubby were excited to spend the day to look for a baby carrier..and i was soooo looking forward to buy this bottle warmer...Yoomi!

 I had looked online and found very few information on the item but the description of it made me understand that it was a bottle wArmer that could warm breast milk in just 60 seconds! How easier can life get if that was the case...(i thought in mind--especially with the fact that my baby boy only likes feeding from the bottle) ...and from the internet surfing i had done, the product was only available at fabulous mom...the online shop i liked to shop while in confinement..luckily they also have a shop and the one we went to was in puchong...it was quite easy for hubby to find the location through his ipad gps..so alhamdulillah we got there earlier than i expected. Immediately after entering the shop, i saw the Yoomi bottles and the warmer. Maybe i was overly excited to buy it. To my surprise, the box of the warmer was quite small which i cant imagine a bottle could fit inside. And it totally cant. So i asked the girls at the shop is it true that this thing can heat up a milk in the bottle in just 60 seconds..? They said you have to recharge it for 25 minutes through boiling water before using it. So i assumed that was only before the first use. And seeing that they didnt know much about the product(since they said they also had to look on youtube to know the procedure of using it) we just ended up buying it. And the price was rm129.90 for a newborn teat bottle together with the warmer.

 On the way back, i was reading the manual and trying to understand the item. Again to my surprise, the warmer was used inside the bottle instead of putting the bottle itself into the warmer. So the warmer could fit into the lid of the bottle where we have to turn the bottle upside down once milk is inside so the milk will run through the warmer to get warm..HOWEVER, it needs to be recharged every time we want to reuse it..so that means, 25 mins of boiling the warmer every time we want to feed. So i was thinking to myself and asking my hubby..what's the difference between this thing and other warmers? It seems like other warmers are better except that they will need power supply. That was until i read one tip statement in the manual where it says something like this 'why not recharge a few of the warmers together so they will be ready when you need them'. That's where i understood this warmer's value added compared to other bottle warmers. But the thing is, we have to buy several of them in order to benefit from the product and plus the price is rm99.90 per warmer. AND it has an expiry date...it's either expired after three months or after 100 times being recharged. Hmmm i'm not criticizing the product, it's just very convenient if we were rich enough to buy several of those warmers every three months. It would be very very convenient though, if i earned 10k a month:p But anyway we already bought one of them so let's just make use of it(which i have not yet tried--after feeling a bit upset with the product). But it's already bought fairuz...so yeahh just use it.

 Ok the other baby stuff we bought was the baby carrier..it was a Lascal brand that we bought after a almost an hour at the little whiz baby shop in setia alam. Finally my hubby chose the red Lascal baby carrier which suited our budget:) After that we went home to pray zuhur and asar. And finally went out again to ONE UTAMA! Wow one whole day outing for Hasan who just fell asleep in the car ride:p And he actually liked the ride in the Lascal carrier sleeping against his daddy's chest:p (still undecided what to call the daddy) --i suggested BABUJI...hee hee

U me aur hum

Alhamdulillah, today is my third day after the 44 days of confinement, that means Hasan is 47 days or just a bit more than 1 month and 2 weeks:)..when he reaches 2 months, there will be another trip to the clinic for another set of injections.. What's with the title? Well as i am writing this, i'm watching a Hindi movie on Zee channel. It's about a husband whose wife has alzheimer and at the same time got pregnant...so he's woeking really hard to make her remember all the days of falling in love with him...after so long not giving myself a break to watch hindi movies, now i get to watch some, while that little cutie is fast asleep. He slept quite late yesterday, staying up with me trying to figure out the wavelet application on the R software. I haven't even completed my first assignment, but i'm still thnkful that i get the time to collect all the needed information and type bit by bit. Most of them are already in my head..just need time to pour them out:p Oh my fees are still unpaid since USIM hasnt finalized my phd application which has been 'abandoned'? For so long after i submitted it. I called them up today just to find out that they didnt even bring my issue to the meeting yesterday! Oh no! Well right now i just feel like appliying the mybrain15 scholarship RIGHT AWAY. I keep reminding myself that there must be a reason for things like this to happen. My hubby also didnt get to traNsfer here to continue his masters. So we are just praying that sooner or later, we will be able to live under one roof. Again, there must be a hikmah for this to happen..maybe just another random test from Allah..afterall, we are living under one roof,--HIS sky..oh how i wish i could be always positive thinking like rite now. Ok til then,... Need to pump some milk:)

16th April 2012

Today's 16th April! What's so special about today? Well it's my second last day of confinement. BUT,it also my first year anniversary of marriage:) Alhamdulillah.

What we've learned and shared, although only for a year for now has been such a blessing..we learned that marriage life isn't easy as it was thought to be before the 'akad', where we start embarking on a journey full of responsibilities and sacrifices. After the june reception, we got to know that i was pregnant, and again, i reminded myself that there's a whole lot of new responsibilities i have to hold--being a wife and mother, other than the daughter to my parents and a student which still continues....

I'm glad and very thankful to have such an understanding husband who doesn't demand that i cook everyday and still supports me from the back for my studies. His patience, love and care is of one that i never expected to have after many failed relationships in the past. But Alhamdulillah, Allah gives what we deserve, and we deserve each other.

...and with the coming of our son, our lives seem much brighter although we don't see each other much often, since he's working in kedah and i'm studying here. The distance doesn't stop us from keeping falling in love. I believe that when you love a person for their soul, distance cannot easily take away that feeling out of the heart. And i pray that this feeling will last til the end of days- til Jannah inshaAllah.

So, to my dearest, happy first anniversary...our relationship is still too young but with prayers and determination, i hope we will last a lifetime and beyond.

I love you a bit more after forever...(translated from Anuar Zain's song sedetik lebih)

Midterm done!

Got my midterm for advanced econometrics done, alhamdulillah! Wondering what baby Hasan is up to with his jiddah (grandma in Arabic). I hope he behaved well:)

Anyways, time to think about those abandoned assignments. Hopefully i can get them done by end of this month..my final exam is on the 10th so will need time to study for that..and again, hopefully Hasan would be nice to me...be nice to mama ok Hasan dearr:)

Oo i'm on my way home with my brother..will continue sooon :)


Love

40 days

Alhamdulillah it has already been 40 days since I delivered my baby boy, Hasan Fayyadh. I always wanted to share the most valuable experiences becoming a mother but time envies me tooo much:p.

Confinement:
The first few days after delivery, i felt so weak, not physically.. but mentally. I wasnt quite sure whether i was ready to become a mother to my little precious with the things going on in my mind especially regarding my studies. The challenge of being a first timer felt endless with the breastfeeding and the lack of sleep, especially when my hubby is not around...but alhamdulillah i survived!

The confinement days were filled with various activities which include 'bertangas', 'bertungku' and 'berurut'. We already hired a 'bidan' to take care of me and Hasan throughout the 44 days of confinement and she takes care of all the bathing for the baby and cooking for me. Anyone interested is free to contact me if you are planning to have a perfect confinement after delivery:)

At first of course it didnt feel good especially with the 'barut' that you have to wear which makes it so much harder to move around or even sit down. But after a while i caught myself shopping online for a new modern corset which feels much better and comfortable :)( After thinking so much of wanting to buy the premium beautiful corset which cost about Rm2600, i decided to shop online through fabulousmom website..hee

Talking about confinement, i realized that i forgot all about the delivery pains and what nots and think i should a little bit share the experience...

5th March 2012
12am : i was having a bad heartburn and had to take gaviscon. The usual heartburn that i had was not as severe...so i was already feeling a bit nervous as if i knew i was going to deiver soon. I am glad i had taken a long bath that night since after delivery it would be hard to do so...

2.30am : i woke up from sleep and felt like i just had a contraction pain but didnt notice it since i was fast asleep...i decided to go to the toilet and there i was shaking so bad when i felt a gush of water coming out and saw blood as well. I called up my mother who was sleeping upstairs, and my sister confirmed that it is the 'air ketuban' that came out. So both my parents hurried to bring me to the shah alam specialist hospital located in sec 19 where i already registered and have been checking up with Dr Siti, a veryyy nice doctor.

Around 3am...the nurse checked and she said it was 3 cm but her curiosity made her come to check me up. The baby's heartbeat was quite slow at a sleeping pace, which according to her was unusual...so after a few hours, at 6am i was brought to the labor room...

**at this point the pain was still very very mild, just like our usual period cramps..

A few minutes in the labor room was enough to increase the pain to the max. I could only hold onto my mother's hands as the contraction builds up.

8am: the doctor came in and was ready. Being the first time mother to be at that time, not even knowing how to push really made me nervous. After a few minutes then the doctor said there was not an inch of a progress although i already pushed several times and already felt so weak. When finally i heard the word 'vacuum' i pushed as hard as i could and baby fayyadh was welcomed:). At the same time, my hubby who drove all the way from kedah, arrived just in time as the baby came out to give him the azan. Only Allah knows how it felt at that time. No words may describe...


And now it has already been 40 days, and all i could say is i'm so thankful for the safe delivery and the new yet challenging experience which has finally knocked on my door.

As i'm writing this, hasan fayyadh is fast asleep, of course. Alhamdulillah he seems much better after a few days of flu and could sleep soundly.

I almost forgot i have an exam tomorrow..hopefully it goes well...and those assignments, i think i'll leave it at that as now and continue after the exam is over..


Til then, nite2 & Assalamualaikum =)