It feels like i can finally breathe again. I am not sure why but i guess it's because my husband got transfered to KL and today is his first day of working here --hopefully in Sg. Buloh Hospital. He had gone to the JKN earlier this morning and was asked to go and register over at Tanjung Karang hospital where he was supposed to be placed! Oh noo..i'm just afraid if they wont let him go to sg.buloh. But lets hope not. We'll see later today. #prayyy
May Allah make it easy for him at his new workplace coz i know how much he loved working in alor setar and how much ppl will actually miss him there. And it always makes me feel guilty for having him to transfer here just because of me and baby Hasan. But anyhow, Allah is the ultimate planner on all occassions and there are times in life that needs tough decisions and trade-offs. May this decision of ours be a blessing from Him, in sha Allah.
And oh little Hasan is 1 yr old and 2months already. The last time i wrote he was only almost 4 months. Yesterday he did a bit of tantrum. We got a little impatient since i was studying for my finals and he (hubby) needed to rest before his first day of work. Hasan didnt want to sleep until it was around 2am. At first it seemed like he wants to play but may be because of the parents wanting him to get to sleep, he got upset and started the t.a.n.t.r.u.m. He cried and cried as if nothing satisfied him. We took him outside the room and downstairs but still he cried. We started to recite ayat kursi repeatedly until finally we brought him back up into the room again and alhamdulillah he fell asleep. We weren't sure what it was but it may be possible that something was disturbing him. Coz i was quite sure he didnt have stomach ache or anything. But what i know for sure is it is a test from Allah to both of us parents since both needed rest and right there our patience could be tested. It reminded me of a phrase i read somewhere that says something on patience. 'Patience is not having any angry feelings inside the heart and not complaining when things that dissatisfy us comes in our way'. Reading this phrase put me into quite a static moment because i realize that sometimes it is definitely hard not to have this angry kind of feeling inside the heart when something bothers me. So there i realized that i still have a LOT to do with my heart in order to be truly patient. Istighfar.
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